Being mother


My husband and I are going to move in a new place and it’s time to organize or dump things. I was tired of organizing things today , but I found these drawings. These are my mother’s. She loved drawing and I loved to see her drawing. She was so talented to draw. I don’t think my sister and I have the gift. I still remember when my sister and I sent her a paint set and she looked very happy. Being mother is so special.

I also want to be a mother and really hope to get pregnant within this year, but it’s just not easy👪💭



Voice in my mind now…
I am so worried about work.
What I’m done is correct or not?
I feel like opening myself up and just hope nothing is going to happen😣
How many time and how long do I have to fight? Don’t pressure me anymore.

Thanks for listening💓

Believe or not….

Do you believe spiritual?
The other day, I met person who read spiritual things and communicate with guardian sprit. He’s just usual person, but he feels spiritual power strongly.
He also recognize what type people is by reading person’s name in kanji.

What I asked him was about family and my career.
Let’s start with my career. According to him, I am not good at managing time and that make me stressed out. And I see an issue in black and white terms, so that’s one of reasons I am irritated.
So he advised me that make a time table scheduling and try to make free time and it relax myself, which is synergistic effect .
A samurai is behind of me as guardian sprit now and the samurai leads my daily life and save me

Regarding my family, he started to talk about my mother. He predicted her disease and what was going on. I only told him that my mother is gone.
1.She wasn’t so aggressiveness > yes, she was .
2.She had a sudden bad disease, which is not curable today .> yes, she did.

I felt so scared. He could tell about future whatever he comes up with but about past, he couldn’t. I definitely said “It was wrong!”
But it was all correct. He told me that my mother hasn’t become Buddha yet and she even hasn’t notice that she was dead.
I was very shocked and couldn’t stop think about it.
My mother might be going through the hardest path. I wish she stayed in heaven and became Buddha. Couldn’t stop crying…..

I don’t know how much I believe him but this isn’t fortune tell.
He might really talk with other world.
Whether or not, i appreciated his advices.

Maternity mark

Once we are pregnant , we get a maternity make to notify people who is pregnant.


This is good mark because it’s not visible on exterior in trains or buses in early pregnancy and if someone has this mark, we can yield up my seat easily. But now, this mark is in a trouble.
Some people say pregnancy isn’t special and they don’t care the pregnancy’s body. They even say “some pregnant women look like they take it for granted to have a seat on public transportation by having the maternity mark. ” or “I worked all day, I am tired than you. ”
They are lots of comments but I just thought wow! I haven’t been pregnant woman but I know it’s very hard to carry a baby and how nervous they are.
So I am wondering on the other countries, how they treat pregnant women on public transportation.

Bowling 🎳

I went bowling with my friends.


There’s a time called moonlight time once an hour, and each person in each lane throw a bowling. A perk of it is a photo. To get the photo, men should do ten-strike and women should hit the pins in the dim and one of us get it ! It’s fun to do bowling sometimes 💓


Relax time

After dinner, I try to keep my body warm.
My favorite hot drink is neither coffees nor green tea, it’s Japanese pickled plum tea with Japanese basil. It’s easy to make it. Pickled plum in the hot water and just mix it.
It tests acid and it might be intolerant for people who try for the first time.
But that make you stay warm.