Busy, tired… But ๐Ÿค—

It’s been 1 month since I resumed work. Being working mom and rasing a kid on my own are so hard. I have my husband but he can’t help me weekdays due to his work schedule.

However, I enjoy working and my son is getting used to his daycare life. The hate part is to call in his sick to my company and I don’t know how much people understand my situation. I’m working with a moody person. He’s mood changes every 30 mins and he flatters his boss. Last Friday, our team had meeting including our bosses. His attitude was so flexible and reasonable in front of them. I really can’t believe him. He always wants to control our ways but he said ” If you have any problems, you can talk to me or it’s OK to talk to other people, too. ” This is so wrong. He wouldn’t be happy if we talk to other people. I really wish he will be assigned to other duty. This team is amazing expect him. This complaint poped up not because I’m a working mom. Every people related to him thinks like the way. He really need to go visit “anger room” where is to let off steam and yell as you smash cups and dishes, furniture and other stuff. This kind of shop addresses a need by people like him. Well, he really need to know how to quell his anger.

About my son, now he learns songs and sing them at home. Baby’s a quick leaner. Even English songs, he can catches some lyrics. He likes a song “This is the way the bunny hops” and now he sings “hop hop hop……”and he knows how to wiggle his nose, too. It’s just a part of lyric but, so catchy for him. He seems to like drawing, too. And more than anything, he loves his daycare orange hat! This suits him and he wears it everywhere. I was so worried about him when he started daycare but now, he’s changed alot and become more ambitious. I can’t thank enough to his teachers and his friends ๐Ÿ˜€


Day 2 in daycare

Day 2 started with mommy’s goof! Before we left home, I changed his diaper. That’s daily rutain activity . Right after we arrived at daycare, his teacher said ” His pants are wet! “. OMG, I forgot to put him on a diaper. That was a terrible mistake. I’m very sorry for my son.

Anyway, his Day 2 was still hard. He cried and kept finding me. His teacher suggested me that he doesn’t extend the time this week and from next week, his time will be longer. She also told me that she will make offort on finishing his gradual entry by next week to let me resume work.

While he was working so hard, I was at a cafe with a mom-friend who was taking daddy’s class together. We talked about having the 2nd kid. She’d had a miscarriage before so that she’s more than satisfied with having her daughter. It was one of the hardest experiences for women. For me, I want one more kid. Actually, at the end of last year, my husband went checked his condition and his doctor said, ” Achieving spontaneous pregnancy would be difficult given this condition “. My husband and I talked about fertility treatment and we will try AIH,but not try IVF. Having a kid is just amazing, but not easy for everybody.

After we got home, he wasn’t cranky and he stated to play with toys. So, I feel his reaction is better than yesterday and didn’t have a fever.

First Day in daycare

On April 2nd is a big day for my son. It’s the first day in daycare. He spent time there for 1 hour 9am-10am. I left his items in the shelf and he stared to cry loudly, but I sneaked out. The moment I left for the first time was easier than I was expected. Maybe most of babies were crying.

While he was there, I waited for pick-up time at a cafe with a mama friend, who is a neighbor and a baby swimming classmate. I’m so lucky to have my company๐Ÿ˜€

1 hour flied by quickly. My son seemed to finish his day with outbursts of tears and got fever because of it and denied snack time.

His teacher told me that crying in the beginning is the better and he’d adjust new life style little by little. He did good job๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ He stated to nap once he arrived at home.

I was so nervous about his first day because of his location anxiety and stranger anxiety. His reaction was expected and we’ve been through. Tomorrow he’s going to there again with the same time. I’ll keep update ๐Ÿค—

Happy announment ๐Ÿ˜€

Spring is just around corner ๐Ÿ’ฎ New school year is starting from April and we got a result of my son’s daycare from city office. I opened the envelope with trembling hands ๐Ÿ‘ and took deep breath when I saw the document.

Yes,he’s going to our first choice daycare!

We didn’t think we could go there. Entering daycare is like winning lottery. It’s point addition score system. City office calculates our family point based on our application. For gaining points, I changed work hour from 9am to 4pm(9points)to 9am to 5pm(10points) because my husband’s point is 10 points and if my point is 9, our point is calculated from 9 points. We did everything we could do. But still it wasn’t easy to get in our first choice. My mother-in-law is a neighbor, which is good for us but it wouldn’t be good for this screening. Family who doesn’t have their family around takes high priority when we have same points.

I went to city office a couple of times to check a present state of month. Every time I was tense and desperate. It was like never end. In addition, my mother-in-law is against daycare because he’s still a little baby. She hasn’t been happy about this result๐Ÿ˜ฅ When people who should be the best supporter don’t work the way, it’ll be hard to get along with, but about our son, we decide everything in our way.

A week earlier before we got the result, I had meeting with my boss who always comes to near my place and we have meeting at a burger shop. At this point, I was not sure if I could be back to work but he talked about my assignment. I’m most greatful that he prepared my place in the office. Eventually I can go back to work๐Ÿ˜€

I’ll send my son daycare at 7:30am and pick him up at 6pm. Gotta busy but I’m thrilled as well๐Ÿ‘๐ŸŽ‰

Must-have item for my son

My son likes playing with a toy in the video,which is made by Quercetti.

This toy develops creativity and concentration power. When he plays, he really focuses on it. So, it helps me, too. The highlight of the toy is making a form as he wants in many ways. In addition, each color of gear is beautiful and it impacts him.

My mother-in-law bought him a box of wooden blocks but shows no interest in it. I feel very sorry for her.

However he found his favorite toy and that’s great source for mom and dad.

The following website is official for your info.


Since I had my son, I’ve been trying to make homemade things. Today I made pancake without pancake mix.

Ingredients :

Flour 200g, 1 egg, Tofu 150g, Sugar 50g, Milk 200ml

I used Tofu instead of backing powder. It’s less fluffy but it helps softness and eventually pancake has a mild taste.

This little man likes this pancake and once he eats, he craves over and over again!

When I asked him ” Do you want more? ” in English, his answer was like “Yeah!”. Maybe it was by accident ๐Ÿ˜‹

This little man let me learn new things ๐Ÿ“ What’s next?

Happy birthday to my son๐ŸŽŠ

On October 20, my son turned 1 year old. I’m so greatful that he’s spent this year healthy and he makes me happy everyday. When I look back on my pregnancy , it’d been rough days.

He was a breech baby and ended up placing right position. I was doubted to be suffered from pregnancy diabetes but I was not. He had a possibility to have spina bifida but he was not. I was suffered from pregnancy hypertension and delivered him by c-section. During the procedure, I got transient tachycardia and had to take medicine for a month and couldn’t let him practice breastfeeding. Eventually he was never breast-feeded.

I do understand these things were paths that I had to go through to be a mother and felt like being tested if I could pass each issue. About breastfeeding, I was the only mother who gave a baby a bottle in the hospital. I was unavailable when my condition was insecurity and it got me hurt and was heartbreaking experiece’d never experienced.

Now He’s adventurous . He eats well and doing yoga himself. If I choose the best job in this world, I’d say mother. Mother is on the go from morning till night for a kid, but can’t be replaced to other. I also appreciate that he chose me as his mother โค๏ธ